Posted by: phynbarr | January 18, 2015

Yes but

Sitting here in tears because.

Because I am looking to buy a cattery and I let the one I really loved slip through my fingers

I fought so hard and did so much and then gave up at the final hurdle and Now it’s gone and I’m having to settle for second best.  Again

My head is saying yes but, the sale of the house. Yes but, servicing the mortgage, yes but, yes but, yes but

Yes but I gave up.  I abandoned myself.  I could have all that I wanted in the world.  A lovely house in a perfect location  (for me) earning a decent living. And I let myself down

You can call it self-sabotage or whatever but I am so tired of settling for second or third or fouth best.

And it’s all down to me

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